The Fatigue

So I'm heading off to Art Center College of Design in Pasadena on the 18th.


Fatigue? - Yes
Worried? - Yes
Tired of anticipation? - Yes
Stressed? - Yes
Excited? - Yes
Tired of other people telling you the school sucks? - Yes

...seriously.

For the past month or so, I've been having second thoughts about going to Art Center. Apparently, the quality of the school has been going down hill. They accept more 'high school' students, which is apparently 'bad'. Part of me wonders, was I accepted for my level of skill? Or was I accepted because I happen to be OK at what I do and I just so happen to be a high school student?

I'm pretty sick of tired of hearing everyone's negative insight. I understand that Art Center students are bitter - infact, I bet I will become like them. However, part of me just wants to give up. I already withdrew nearly $40,000 in private student loans just for my first year. At OTIS, another art school I considered, I believe I'd only need about $5,000~$10,000 in private student loans. At SF Academy of Art, I could at least pull a double major AND be in one of my favorite places on the planet. The odds are against me.

...But still, my path is already laid out before me. I have a place in Pasadena, I have my loans, I have my skill - can determination really see everything through to the end?

I hate everything right now.

But regardless, I still intend on going to Art Center, even with all this doubt I have. I'm sick of disappointment. I want to see this through to the end...


The odds are against me, but still...

...you gotta let me dream, even if it's just once





- Matt